Current song playing: Flow- GO!!

"We are Fighting Dreamers, with these best friends
Fighting Dreamers, swallowing up everything
Fighting Dreamers, with high ambitions"

Thought I might just write down some things that have happened to me, now don't worry it's not going to be me moaning and whatnot. Bear with me and you might like reading this.

Yesterday after college had finished I went into town with the Gavner, Muffin and the abolsutely fascinating Fia and we were walking through the park (well Fia was on her bike but I digress) to go into town. Looking at the sky I had one of my ever-occurring moments where I look at the sky and find myself in awe of the cloud patterns in the sky, it was all wispy and smooth, but not only that I also happened to glance at the Sun where I noticed a small glowing orb next to it. Thinking it was just something on my shades manipulating the light I took them off only to find the orb was still there, and what was interesting about it was that it was red on the right side, blue on the left and green in the middle.

Then of course I realised I was fortunate enough to have spotted a 'sun-dog', famous for having appeared either side of the Sun on the circumference of the upside-down rainbow, and of course I stopped to admire it. Never thought I'd be able to see those in real life, and if that wasn't enough when I walked further into the park I saw the other 'sun-dog' aswell. Very glad to have seen that, certainly proved to be a great end to my day aswell as explaining Unforgotten Realms references to Fia with Gav, felt good being considered more entertaining than the actual programme =]

Today also brought about some fanciful scenery for me to admire as I was out driving for my Pass Plus session, which was a big success so I'm quite pleased about that. The fact that it was a glorious sunny day helped a lot to make it literally a beautiful day for me, not a single cloud in the sky. I drove down to Folkstone (I think that's what the place was called) which is near Dover right on the coast and while I was eating my lunch during our break it was calming to look out to the water. Seeing a giant tanker float by in the distance and the little boats in the harbour bob up and down wasn't too bad either.

When I was driving back up from Folkstone a load of clouds had decided to crash the party, but thankfully they created some interesting shapes. The best shape I saw was nearly the exact rendition of the head of a dragon Fia once drew and it didn't look out of place floating in the sky, growing ever larger the further along the motorway I went. Later on towards the end of my session I was driving through Sevenoaks and a village called "Seal", yes that's right, where seeing as it's autumn time of course all the leaves are taking charity parachute jumps out of their trees, so when I was going thorugh the country lanes there was a swirl of green/yellow/brown surrounding me and I just couldn't help but think how pretty it all looked.

So alas that will be the end of my tale, apologies if I weirded you out or made no sense at all but I just felt like writing this.

See you soon.

Current song playing: The Real Thing- You To Me Are Everything

"Though you're close to me, we seem so far apart. Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart."

Weird day today, I seemed to have experienced a somewhat spontaneous depression. I haven't had one of those in a while and I hope I don't have one again soon.

This combined with feeling a tad tired and not looking forward to work in the evening left me feeling rather odd, and you know what else odd I felt? I felt ordinary, and I don't mean as in normal because there's no such thing as normal it's just an invention of the majority of society to create a set style for people to follow but which is constantly changing.

Anyway, I speak of feeling ordinary but not only that, I felt like an also-ran, as if i was 'just another guy' who hangs about in the background and never gets noticed most of the time. I don't know this could be of my own invention or just a reflection of how slowly I seem to progress in life. Now before you get any ideas I have this to say:

It's not your fault.

I've had these kind of days before, but not for years, mainly between the end of Year 6 and early Year 10, but that was because I didn't have many people to call my friend and a lot of people were playing with my emotions. I was even sent to a counsellor but she didn't get to the root of the depressions, she had to leave for a different centre and I was left without a friend and no close to finding out what was wrong with me back then. Now however I haven't been having many at all so just give me hugs and have a chat and I'll be as right as rain. Especially if my love gives me a little cuddle, I'll be ever so grateful.

I'm sorry for acting so down to you, you came over to me to see how I was and I wanted to talk to you about how I was feeling but evidently it was not the right time to talk to you. I promise to talk to you about my problems when I next get the right chance to. It's the least I can do after what you've done for me.

Anyway being forced to redo my Key Skills work (which is preventing me from getting into A2 and I originally submitted it at Christmas and only now has my teacher told me to redo it), being pestered about my theory test for driving not only by Dad but now by Mum aswell who is telling me essentially that I need to get a move on, and being told to get a new job is probably not helping me relax when I want to now that I've gotten the chance.

So alas I must finish this post, I can't think of much more to say than that recently I had a dream and I want to talk to someone I trust about it because I don't know if I should have had it or not. Also I'm listening to the Russell Brand podcast, the latest one mind.

Now I fare the well, and for that special girl, I love you.

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