Current song playing: Well whatever follows on the list I guess.

Basically I'm copying Fia because her version was so good I wanted to see how mine would turn out, here goes:

1. How am I feeling today? High- Feeder (Really?)

2. Where will I get married? Sonorus- Feeder (To me that suggests maybe a church?)

3. What is my best friend’s theme song? The Scientist- Coldplay (Well I've no idea who my best friend is so who knows?)
4. What was High school like? Supreme- Robbie Williams (Um...)

5. What is the best thing about me? The Pretender- Foo Fighters (Oh dear :S)

6. How is tomorrow going to be? Perfect Day- Lou Reed Children In Need (Oh really? :D)

7. What is in store for this weekend? Man Machine- Robbie Williams (Hard-working times? *shrug*)

8. How does the world see me? Where'd All The Good People Go?- Jack Johnson (Am I one of the good people?)

9. What do my friends really think of me? This River Is Wild- The Killers (That's a bemusing analogy actually, not sure what to make of it)

10. How can I make myself happy? Forget About Tomorrow- Feeder (Ah but what would happen about planning? Or maybe that's the thing, maybe let stuff happen rather than prepare for what might?)

11. What should I do with my life? I Made It- Jay-Z (Well the song is about becoming a success when others thought you wouldn't so...)

12. Will I ever have children? Under The Weather- Feeder (I'll leave that to the imagination)

13. What is some good advice? You're All I Have- Snow Patrol (To make someone you care about feel special and valued?)

14. What do I think my current theme song is? Girl Is On My Mind- Rubber Factory (Actually that is true there is a girl on my mind, a lot...)

15. What does everyone else think about my current life? Viva La Vida- Coldplay (The song title means 'Live The Life', or 'Long Live Life' so I'm not too sure)

16. What type of women/men do you like? Lovers In Japan- Coldplay (Now that would be interesting, reminds me of how I really want to go to Japan)

17. Will you get married? Don't Get Me Wrong- Lily Allen (Is that a yes with an if or a no with a but?)

18. What should I do with my love life? The Importance Of Being Idle- Oasis (Paraphrasing 'be patient' much?"

19. Where will you live? Win Some, Lose Some- Robbie Williams (Suggests gambling, living in a casino? :S)

20. When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say…Porcelain- Moby (No wonder people are resistant to approach me)

21. When my parents are angry I say… Lost?- Coldplay (That may stop them from arguing but maybe not for long, probably confuse them)

22. What always makes me happy? Move Your Feet- Junior Senior (Awesome song, I'm not much of a dancer though)

23. What always makes you laugh? Inversion- Mark Ronson (Well inversion of colours to make amusing pictures maybe?)

24. What makes you cry? You Give Me Something- James Morrison (Oh hardly, only piece of music that makes me cry is "Rose's Theme" as I've previously mentioned)

25. What makes you angry? Bela Lugosi's Dead- Bauhaus (*shrug* I don't think so)

26. What’s your biggest weakness? Grace- Robbie Williams (I'll probably have to disagree)

27. And your greatest achievement in life so far? You're All I Need To Get By- Mark Ronson (Finding true love? Well it's certainly made me feel the happiest I've been in life)

28. And your greatest ambition? Icky Thump- The White Stripes (No idea what that means, possibly to do with drumming?)

29. What song sums up how you feel about the girl/guy you like? Calm Down Dearest- Jamie T (I wish I got the song from #27 in this, it's how I feel)

30. What’s the most important thing in your life? Violet Hill- Coldplay (Well seeing as the true meaning behing this song is unknown to non-Coldplay members I can't think much of this)

31. What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever been given? Not Everyone- Nine Black Alps (Well reading the lyrics, it's kind of a way of saying that not everyone is a bad person or something)

32. And the worst? Stronger- Kanye West (What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger)

33. What was your childhood like? Ghosts- Robbie Williams (I certainly felt as invisible as one)

34. What are you thinking right now? Whistle For The Choir- The Fratellis (Yeah, thinking about it more it makes sense to me)

35. What will you end up doing in life? Book Eight- Hank Green (Good lord I'd ruin the entire Harry Potter legacy, I'd have countless amounts of HP nerdfighters chase me like an angry mob for creating such a disaster)

36. What would you like to say to your friends? Broken- Feeder (Well I feel like it, especially one part of me, feels like it's on life support with fleeting bursts of life)

37. What about your enemies? So Far So Good- Johnathan Coulton (Again this song and the previous should be switched if rules were to allow me)

38. And what’s your final message to the world? Drinking With You- Johnathan Coulton (The lyrics say it better than this comment does)

Well how about that, quite a few songs bringing about love-themed thoughts but hey, it's onlya quiz.

Until next time...

Current song playing: 4Music presents Coldplay

It's been a while since I wrote a post about a dream I had but I thought a dream I had a couple of nights ago would be worth writing about.

I was sitting in the crowd inside my secondary school's drama hall next to Fia when a performance that we had gone to see together started up. I can't really remember what it was about but I was just enjoying the experience of going to see something with a close friend of mine, then a bit of a surprise occured when Fia stood up and made her way towards the stage which bemused me a little. Oddly though the performers were moving about in a way that they expected Fia to go onto the stage and even the music in the background was building up to a gap where someone would start singing. Surely enough Fia then walked up to the microphone and started singing, and my goodness she was good. I'm not saying this because of personal opinion (even though I bet Fia is a better singer than she makes out to be in real life) because I remember that when she was singing I thought to myself "this is just beautiful". It turned out that she was actually part of the performance all along so that was a pleasant surprise, but it invoked such admiration of her from me when I was listening to her so I waas glad to have enjoyed it.

So anyway that was my dream, hope you all had a good weekend.

Current song playing: Jonathan Coulton- Drinking With You

"My heart stops in a panic, when I think of how it would feel to finally hold your hand"


My oh my, we haven't seen eachother for a few weeks now have we blogger?

I have to say though it has been a good weekend for me, I mean a dinner out with my great friends can only be a good thing and it certainly was. A steak, conversations and great Sex (On The Beach) combined with a bit of Blackjack was a lovely meal. If a bit expensive.

Tell you what got a great chance to burn it off acting nonchalantly in the park and running off towards the station to catch the last train home, well not me personally but it would have been rude to let them run off by themselves into the dark. The stitch was worth it. Also as if my night couldn't get any better a little 'love-in' shall we call it was a lively end to the night, Imi being the main benefactor I would think =] (hello there if you're reading this, you're not the only one who hasn't blogged for a while it would seem).

So thankyou for inviting me, the start to that day wasn't exactly great and I was stuck with Maths papers to do which is as we know is a great way to cure my depression(!) Seriously though I really want to thank all of you for a great night. Possible lack of funds maybe not allowing us to do it as often as we'd like, weather permitting.

Alas, that brings me onto tonight/today/11th November 2008.
Thankfully I didn't get sacked, so I'm still in with a job until it gets quiet and overtime becomes unavailable then I'm out of there. It helped a little to raise me out of the currently turbulent mood I'm in, well not exactly turbulent I'd say more brinking on happiness to be talking to the people who mean so much to be/mild depression due to lonliness nearly cried a couple of times today mixed with a little bit of tired. That and chats I've had with Fia over the days http://horrendousblah.wordpress.com/ for proof of that.

I shouldn't feel like this really, I mean an iffy mood doesn't help when I'm trying to do Physics work, it's just a little bit pathetic of me to feel lonely. I've been through it all in my head several times but it's still there, the cowering man sitting opposite to the frustrated man slamming his fists on the table telling him to get over himself.

I thought there were a couple of avenues open to me but gradually over the past couple of days they slowly got sealed off from me but anyway I shouldn't rant on too much about things I already have. As I read somewhere:

"Don't compromise yourself, You're all you've got".

That should have been my motto throughout secondary school, hell it should be my motto now. It appears I can find a way to gradually screw myself over at ever stage of my life, even if I can't see it happening at the time.

There were a few comforting moments to help ease me out of my mood, mainly hugs if I'm honest courtesy of Jess and, well I'm going to put a little revelation here. The person I've written under the pseudonym 'her' in my labels section is Cat, and I don't know if it's my place to say this but just the hug and that you asked if I felt ok was comforting beyond belief for me today. It felt like something great that I hadn't felt for some time just rushed up to greet me again and it was wonderful. As for Jess well it is always marvellous to be able to hug you, makes me smile more often than not, but I'll always have this feeling that I'm not the first guy you'd go to for a hug, but that's my problem not yours.

I guess that's all I have to say for now, apologies for upsetting the probably >4 readers I still have on this thing with my less-than-perky return.

Oh and another revelation I think worth sharing, this is to you Fia if you still remember it.

The Emerald Lady was you, I only just realised it.

Current song playing: Flow- GO!!

"We are Fighting Dreamers, with these best friends
Fighting Dreamers, swallowing up everything
Fighting Dreamers, with high ambitions"

Thought I might just write down some things that have happened to me, now don't worry it's not going to be me moaning and whatnot. Bear with me and you might like reading this.

Yesterday after college had finished I went into town with the Gavner, Muffin and the abolsutely fascinating Fia and we were walking through the park (well Fia was on her bike but I digress) to go into town. Looking at the sky I had one of my ever-occurring moments where I look at the sky and find myself in awe of the cloud patterns in the sky, it was all wispy and smooth, but not only that I also happened to glance at the Sun where I noticed a small glowing orb next to it. Thinking it was just something on my shades manipulating the light I took them off only to find the orb was still there, and what was interesting about it was that it was red on the right side, blue on the left and green in the middle.

Then of course I realised I was fortunate enough to have spotted a 'sun-dog', famous for having appeared either side of the Sun on the circumference of the upside-down rainbow, and of course I stopped to admire it. Never thought I'd be able to see those in real life, and if that wasn't enough when I walked further into the park I saw the other 'sun-dog' aswell. Very glad to have seen that, certainly proved to be a great end to my day aswell as explaining Unforgotten Realms references to Fia with Gav, felt good being considered more entertaining than the actual programme =]

Today also brought about some fanciful scenery for me to admire as I was out driving for my Pass Plus session, which was a big success so I'm quite pleased about that. The fact that it was a glorious sunny day helped a lot to make it literally a beautiful day for me, not a single cloud in the sky. I drove down to Folkstone (I think that's what the place was called) which is near Dover right on the coast and while I was eating my lunch during our break it was calming to look out to the water. Seeing a giant tanker float by in the distance and the little boats in the harbour bob up and down wasn't too bad either.

When I was driving back up from Folkstone a load of clouds had decided to crash the party, but thankfully they created some interesting shapes. The best shape I saw was nearly the exact rendition of the head of a dragon Fia once drew and it didn't look out of place floating in the sky, growing ever larger the further along the motorway I went. Later on towards the end of my session I was driving through Sevenoaks and a village called "Seal", yes that's right, where seeing as it's autumn time of course all the leaves are taking charity parachute jumps out of their trees, so when I was going thorugh the country lanes there was a swirl of green/yellow/brown surrounding me and I just couldn't help but think how pretty it all looked.

So alas that will be the end of my tale, apologies if I weirded you out or made no sense at all but I just felt like writing this.

See you soon.

Current song playing: Bill Martin- The Man Who Throws The Tetris Piece

"You see no-one can defeat the man who throws the tetris piece"

Nothing too special to post today, except that I have personally had a rather good day today and had a load of fun!

• Messing about in Physics with no teacher amongst Becky and Lozza and Matt
• Seeing how much stuff we could fit into Gav's diabolo (2 coke caps, a paperclip and a AAA battery I believe)
• Bringing in my chain chomp and volley-balling it around the quad.
• Pretending the chomp was my head and being guided round the english classes to the hilarious bemusement of many English students (saw photos which were really funny!)
• Walking about the college with Fia talking about loads of stuff and just generally having a really enjoyable time around her.
• Seeing Jo so happy after recieving the birthday portrait I drew for her (it's reactions like this that keep me going, made me very happy to see her smile!)

Anyway that's all I have to offer you I guess today, not feeling bad about myself and just pleased at a happy day.

Hope to see you all soon.

Current song playing: Coldplay- X&Y

"Trying hard to speak and
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
It's all part of the plan

When something is broken
And you try to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way you can"

My this blog has gone cold from neglect, I shall aim to warm it some more with a nice cup of Jasmine tea...shall have to pop back to the Steyning Tea Houses...maybe take someone with me *ponders*

Anyway I haven't really had anything significant to blog about recently and thus not felt like wasting peoples time by typing dribble but tonight fingers have come to keys and after talking to people (both meaning a lot to me) I've felt compelled to write.

I've been doubting myself recently, a lot in fact. I've grown nervous around the people who mean the most to me not only in person but online and not knowing what to type to keep them interested and having the confidence to type/talk slowly shrink away into seclusion or a feeling of "they wouldn't want to talk to me anyways".

I got shown some videos by someone recently and aside from being interesting in the way of showing how big space is and having some incredibly large figures, it made me think a little but probably not what I was supposed to. I doubted myself again to my worth as a person or to other's time even though it was supposed to make me feel great about myself and I apologise to Lizzie for not being as upbeat as I was supposed to be and being a pessimist toward myself.

Having getting over the nervousness of talking to people and trying to get conversations going though proved slightly easier for me recently as they've actually made me feel better just by talking to me and making me think that maybe I am interesting enough to make their time spent talking to me worthwhile.

What I have found the most confusing personally is when I try and explain my doubts or weird feelings I stumble and think to myself "I don't actually know" so it then gets me thinking as to why the hell I am thinking all this and that I should just grow up and be happy with what I have, yet I've not the will-power to do so it would seem.

Nonetheless I guess it's been a mental "what-the-hell" type thing going on for me but I just want to extend some thanks for some little things that have been good for me recently:

To Fia: For the walks in the woods, the chats online about many goods & all the laughs we had
To Lizzie: For the reassuring beliefs, the consoling of my griefs & the cute dp of an orange
To her: For simply responding, to leave me wondering, of when we will meet again.

Sleep well my friends.

Current song playing: The Killers- Romeo And Juliet

"I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV

And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be

I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you

Can't do anything except be in love with you



And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be"





I had a couple of odd dreams recently, one involving Lizzie and the other the cast of Top Gear...probably best you don't ask about these as I'm issuing an advance warning of possible disturbance.

Anyway now for something I've come to realise this week, I'm losing hope.


If it's now increasingly likely I'll ever be able to speak to her again then hell will freeze, thaw and refreeze before I can have anything romantic with her. I'm living in the past, I'm scared to turn to the future and I'm constantly relating myself to a simple Dr Who quote I saw in the finale:

"So what about you Doctor, all those friends you've got?"..."They've all got someone else now"



Alas I have to put out a mention to Fia, yet again she has been able to make me feel better what with her uplifiting demeanour and her frantic typing at the end of conversations trying to get down all she wants to say and my sneaky attempts at keeping her from going to bed so she can keep me smiling for that extra minute. Selfish I know, will have to get her that ice-cream I owe her as an apology gift.

Speaking of Fia I should probably end this blog with something uplifting...well it'll be uplifting for some and for others distinctly average.

Upon the arrival of July 12th the fantastic Fia and the sincere Steph kindly partnered me to the Goodwood Festival of Speed and I can honeslty say it was the best one I have ever been to simply because they were there with me. I've never been able to openly act in my automotive interests with people before, sure there are thousands of other people there too but apart from my Dad I've never been able to share my world with people like this before. So a most sincere thankyou to the both of you and now here are the moments from that day that I look back on kindest:

• Going "shopping" with Fia and Steph round the racecar model shops.
• Trying the A1GP pit-stop challenge with Dad.
• Talking to Alan McNish and finding out he was tired of journalists over-hyping the Le Mans battle between Audi (which he drove for) and Peugeot and thought Peugeot were going to win.
• Finding out both Alan and I love a good mocha.
• Battling the walk up the hill to crossing 6 with them both.
• Watching the tiny windscreen wipers on the tank go crazy.
• Waving umbrellas about to help Dad find me, much to photographer's displeasure.
• Seeing Fia get awe-struck by the Airbus A380.
• The three of us egging eachother on to get Sir Stirling Moss' autograph.
• Getting Sir Stirling Moss to sign a copy of Ian Fleming's "Live And Let Die".
• Watching Fia and Steph dive into a pile of bean bags at the Honda stand.
• Sitting on the Honda F1-liveried lawnmower with Steph.
• Fia giving Steph a ride in a Honda Civic Type-R, Fia being the driver of course, and having a laugh.
• The bumpy ride in the tractor shuttles up and down from the rally stage
• Being interviewed by the online Race of Champions TV crew about my opinions on it being hosted in Wembley.
• Running about the supercar display taking pictures just as the cars were preparing to do their runs up the hill.
• Getting a text from Fia giving me subtle clues as to where she was sitting in the supercar paddock.
• Getting a text from Fia saying "Look up" and literally looking up at the sky when they were right next to me on the wall, then getting a text saying "By the cafe we're not that ruddy tall!". Good laugh that was.
• Playing with the cavemen from Wacky Races's hair.
• Trying to get Steph and Fia noticed on the TV camera up by the rally stage with me.
• Driving an XBOX game on a stand where the seat was too low and the TV screen angles so the clouds reflected off the screen therefore not being able to see where you were going, not good when the steering wheel was nearly falling off the table and possibly explaining why the steering was so light. But fun to see Steph and Fia having a go and me giving them directions.
• Walking straight past Fia and Steph (literally) whilst trying to find them in the paddock...several times.
• Fia singing the Bugatti Veyron's praises, and me complimenting the Pur Sang edition.
• Fia and I taking pictures of eachother with her SLR camera whilst waiting for Steph to finish in the lavatory.
• The minimal traffic in and out of the event.
• Steph and I walking Fia to and from her house up to my Dad's car.
• Steph and I endlessly stroking Fia's face as it was so soft.
• Me walking arm in arm with Fia on my right and Steph on my left through the Style-et-Luxe past a James Bond car display with big band music in the background. I'll treasure that moment most for a very long time. "Well looks like you really CAN live like a spy and get the girls".

Anyway that's all I can remember for now, if I remember anything more I'll add it in a later date.

But I should probably take Fia's advice from 2 hours ago and go to bed.

I'll see you soon.

Current song playing: Coldplay- Everything's Not Lost

"So if you ever feel neglected, and you think that all is lost, I'll be counting up my demons, hoping everything's not lost"

I can't believe the weekend I had, so many good things happened it was an incredibly great experience, probably what I needed after recent social events had left me confused, nervous and apprehensive for a while. But anyway enough of that, I have a story to tell...

Saturday morning was the turn of my theory test for my driving. Got 49/50 for multiple choice and 61/75 for hazard perception so that equated to one hell of a pass! Nearly had my test cancelled by the DSA as I had left the photocard part of my provisional driving license at home but Dad was kind enough to get it for me. Fast-forward the day an hour or so and I had managed to get back to Horsham in time to play football in the park as usual, and what's more is the team I was in won the game so an added benefit of the day. Fast-forward the day again and after the British Grand Prix I had recieved confirmation that I was allowed to go to the British Grand Prix with my Dad! More details on that later.

Upon watching Doctor Who in the evening I wasn't really struck by the finale, it solved the answers of the previous episode cliffhanger but that's pretty much all it did. The using-the-hand-to-keep-Tennant-the-same was a bit of a cop-out of Mr Davies' part and didn't do him justice as to some of the good episodes he has written have done. However was glad that Donna no longer plays a role in the programme, I shan't rant about this too long but she was the most rubbish companion in the history of Dr Who. Enough said. Also glad to see no sudden burst of what will start this years Christmas special, the plot was best left with him just adjusting to life on his own again. Was a bit rubbish to see the entire mass of associates he had collected all forced to go seperate ways, especially Rose but we all knew what the Doctor said to her on Bad Wolf Bay now don't we?

Anyway, Sunday beckoned me profusely as it was the day of the 2008 Santander British Grand Prix, I had to get up early so that I was able to get to the circuit in time. The reason why I was allowed to the Grand Prix was that I was to join my Dad as part of Cabair staff, I got up early so that I would travel with my Dad to the circuit and help out when it came to flying the customers in and out of the circuit for the Grand Prix. Thus in turn allowing me to get into Silverstone for FREE. That's right, I paid nothing. Zero. Zilch. Nada.

Once the customers had gotten where they wanted to (Vernon Kay and Tess Daly being notable guests), we were taxi-ed down to a clubhouse/cafe place (which had a free-vending hot drinks machine, made use of that with a mocha) next to Bridge where there was a perfect vantage point where the ground was risen up to build the road over the bridge. Uninterrupted views of Maggots/Beckets and turning around gave views of the run down to Stowe so plenty of overtaking opportunities ready for recording.

Even when the cars were on the warm-up lap the noise was just amazing, you could sense how the engines were longing to be put to full pace and when they were...it's just phenomenal. Never have I actually felt something inside my ears upon hearing something, it says a lot about the sheer power of the engines, just makes me want to have gone to a Grand Prix back when they had 3-litre V10's that weren't rev-limited and were the pinnacle of engine development in worldwide motorsport. Anyway below is a link to a montage video I took of the weekend:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s41Ou03VaI

The race itself was incredibly eventful, Lewis Hamilton finishing an epic 68-odd seconds before second-placed Nick Heidfeld and Rubens Barrichello taking a well-deserved 3rd for Honda. What's more is that Massa spun at least 5 times (with some jeering from the crowd) and Raikonnen making a poor decision to stay on his first stint tyres and losing around 40 seconds to Hamilton. Good to see Ferrari getting this kind of race happen to them after all the help they've gotten from the FIA recently. Mark Webber unfortunately again couldn't capitalise on a front-row start and spun on the hangar straight on the first lap ultimately causing him to finish outside of the points. It made the wind and the rain so worth it to have gone to my first British Grand Prix with a British driver winning in a British car and I went for free. Can't get many better motor-racing experiences than that without driving.

I originally started at Bridge then with my Dad and his colleagues we walked down to Stowe before finishing at Copse to watch the end of the race. It was great to see Hamilton waving at the fans while they cheered, you could even hear them cheering at the start/finish straight there were so many of them. What was funny was that when I was at Bridge I was standing near a small group of raging Ferrari fans so to see them get all excited when Raikonnen closed up to Hamilton only to see Ferrari screw up their strategy so that showed them what was what.

After the race had finished we were taxi-ed back up to the marquees up by Abbey to get Cabair customers back out of the circuit so they could go home and I was instructed to tell the staff which of our designated helicopters were landing in certain bays by listening to radio transmissions from the control tower at Silverstone (121.075Hz I think the frequency was). That went well and then out of the blue I was told that I may have to get a helicopter out of the circuit so I was suddenly very nervous, it's hard enough for me to jump out of a tree from a branch no higher than my height as it is let alone ride in a helicopter. Unfortunately for me, while I was frantically pacing up and down the marquee, it dawned on me that it was this or walk. I had no idea which direction to go in either and it was raning so I had to take my vertigo like a man and just get in the helicopter and hope the flight is as short as possible.

So I walked out of the marquee at a crouch as I was adamant that I was not to go anywhere near the rotors than is sensible, and I was bundled into the front seat so I was to get a panoramic view throughout the trip. Not too bad then. So as we ascended I video-ed the view as to prove to myself (or other people) I was capable of remaining in relative calm at over head height. I got a pretty good view of the circuit and could see the entire layout of the track. What I actually found interesting was while flying that the rain streamed across the windshield in a rather elegant fashion, but I should point out that from ascent to descent my left hand would not let go of a coasthanger-thing above me to my left whether I told it to or not. Couple of other things that worried me about the trip was the window was vibrating tremendously while in flight and the fact that as I was sitting in the front passenger seat that of course I was next to all the controls, including a bid red button labelled "KILL SWITCH". That unnerved me a lot knowing what that button does and having it near me.

Nonetheless after getting over the silly amounts of tilting that the pilot was doing in the air the descent back to where Dad's car was parked went smoothly and I got out safely too. I made a point of telling Dad that I was still a petrolhead and that my preferred method of transport would always be the car. Flew over the Red Bull Racing F1 factory which could have been an insight to a future workplace if my plans go well.

A final highlight of the trip would be living the classic cliche of having swans (thankyou Fia for correcting me, I originally thought they were geese) cross the road in front of me when me and Dad were driving past the Nissan factory next to where my Dad works.

So yeah quite a weekend and I do hope I haven't bored you at all reading this.

And if you're reading this then remember I still love you, I'm sorry if it inconveniences you but I just can't help this.

Fare thee well.

Current song playing: Groove Armada- Crazy For you

What I'm dying to say,
is that I'm crazy for you,
Touch me once and you'll know it's true,
I never wanted anyone like this

Well if some of you are wondering where my blogs went well they're still here but as there are exams and whatnot on I haven't felt like I've had anything worth contributing to the world but nonetheless I thought I'd share something with you.

I'm going to keep a log of any dreams I experience in the hope I can find out anything about what I really feel about things or what influences me most. Anyway I shan't be posting them on here so I'll only post them if I think they're pretty darn interesting or mean something to me.

So here's an extract from one I had last Saturday night...

"Next I was in a giant theatre seating area with Dex, Fia and some other people when I needed to go to the toilet. I walked out towards the gent’s when this coloured guy looks at me funny and I said all I was doing was going to the toilet. Then suddenly me and Joy from My Name Is Earl are forced into the ladies toilet and Joy is forced into a room whilst I did my business and walked away. Somehow I then end up behind a bar on a stage when a female singer starts walking onto the stage and sings, she smiled at me and I smiled back. Then I see the crowd waving their arms from side to side, then I notice Fia seeing me do it and going “Aww”. Then I am in a park and I see Dex falling off a bike into a pool of mud and he hurt his arm."

I look forward to the summer and to the project I shall be a part of.

Current song playing: Elton John- Your Song

"How wonderful life is, when you're in the world"

It's amazing how the sun shining combined with just laying on the grass with your friends can just make a day feel so care-free. I've missed out on too much when I was in my old school, and you know what, I owe it all to those group of friendly lay-abouts I proudly call my friends. Some of them even best friends but I'll never be able to tell you who as I've never known what makes a best friend. I'll probably find out eventually just you wait.

The start of the standardised testing season began this week with a rolling start, turns out my revision was made redundant but the paper was simple enough so I can hardly complain.

A couple of revelations recently, 1) I'm unnaturally capable at "appearing from nowhere" behind my friends which I'm finding rather amusing & 2) I can do a better accent than I think I can, try me out on Welsh/Scottish for a start...I wonder what else I'll be able to imitate...

Anyway this has been a great day for me, I shall end this blog before something gets a chance to ruin it, pesky life whatever shall it do next eh?

I shall fare thee well and for that person I say I love you.

P.S. I was actually listening to my dear friend Fia on the piano before this song came on but it was too quick for me to post as the title, but nonetheless I recommend you listen to it if she ever sends you clips.