Current song playing: Well whatever follows on the list I guess.

Basically I'm copying Fia because her version was so good I wanted to see how mine would turn out, here goes:

1. How am I feeling today? High- Feeder (Really?)

2. Where will I get married? Sonorus- Feeder (To me that suggests maybe a church?)

3. What is my best friend’s theme song? The Scientist- Coldplay (Well I've no idea who my best friend is so who knows?)
4. What was High school like? Supreme- Robbie Williams (Um...)

5. What is the best thing about me? The Pretender- Foo Fighters (Oh dear :S)

6. How is tomorrow going to be? Perfect Day- Lou Reed Children In Need (Oh really? :D)

7. What is in store for this weekend? Man Machine- Robbie Williams (Hard-working times? *shrug*)

8. How does the world see me? Where'd All The Good People Go?- Jack Johnson (Am I one of the good people?)

9. What do my friends really think of me? This River Is Wild- The Killers (That's a bemusing analogy actually, not sure what to make of it)

10. How can I make myself happy? Forget About Tomorrow- Feeder (Ah but what would happen about planning? Or maybe that's the thing, maybe let stuff happen rather than prepare for what might?)

11. What should I do with my life? I Made It- Jay-Z (Well the song is about becoming a success when others thought you wouldn't so...)

12. Will I ever have children? Under The Weather- Feeder (I'll leave that to the imagination)

13. What is some good advice? You're All I Have- Snow Patrol (To make someone you care about feel special and valued?)

14. What do I think my current theme song is? Girl Is On My Mind- Rubber Factory (Actually that is true there is a girl on my mind, a lot...)

15. What does everyone else think about my current life? Viva La Vida- Coldplay (The song title means 'Live The Life', or 'Long Live Life' so I'm not too sure)

16. What type of women/men do you like? Lovers In Japan- Coldplay (Now that would be interesting, reminds me of how I really want to go to Japan)

17. Will you get married? Don't Get Me Wrong- Lily Allen (Is that a yes with an if or a no with a but?)

18. What should I do with my love life? The Importance Of Being Idle- Oasis (Paraphrasing 'be patient' much?"

19. Where will you live? Win Some, Lose Some- Robbie Williams (Suggests gambling, living in a casino? :S)

20. When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say…Porcelain- Moby (No wonder people are resistant to approach me)

21. When my parents are angry I say… Lost?- Coldplay (That may stop them from arguing but maybe not for long, probably confuse them)

22. What always makes me happy? Move Your Feet- Junior Senior (Awesome song, I'm not much of a dancer though)

23. What always makes you laugh? Inversion- Mark Ronson (Well inversion of colours to make amusing pictures maybe?)

24. What makes you cry? You Give Me Something- James Morrison (Oh hardly, only piece of music that makes me cry is "Rose's Theme" as I've previously mentioned)

25. What makes you angry? Bela Lugosi's Dead- Bauhaus (*shrug* I don't think so)

26. What’s your biggest weakness? Grace- Robbie Williams (I'll probably have to disagree)

27. And your greatest achievement in life so far? You're All I Need To Get By- Mark Ronson (Finding true love? Well it's certainly made me feel the happiest I've been in life)

28. And your greatest ambition? Icky Thump- The White Stripes (No idea what that means, possibly to do with drumming?)

29. What song sums up how you feel about the girl/guy you like? Calm Down Dearest- Jamie T (I wish I got the song from #27 in this, it's how I feel)

30. What’s the most important thing in your life? Violet Hill- Coldplay (Well seeing as the true meaning behing this song is unknown to non-Coldplay members I can't think much of this)

31. What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever been given? Not Everyone- Nine Black Alps (Well reading the lyrics, it's kind of a way of saying that not everyone is a bad person or something)

32. And the worst? Stronger- Kanye West (What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger)

33. What was your childhood like? Ghosts- Robbie Williams (I certainly felt as invisible as one)

34. What are you thinking right now? Whistle For The Choir- The Fratellis (Yeah, thinking about it more it makes sense to me)

35. What will you end up doing in life? Book Eight- Hank Green (Good lord I'd ruin the entire Harry Potter legacy, I'd have countless amounts of HP nerdfighters chase me like an angry mob for creating such a disaster)

36. What would you like to say to your friends? Broken- Feeder (Well I feel like it, especially one part of me, feels like it's on life support with fleeting bursts of life)

37. What about your enemies? So Far So Good- Johnathan Coulton (Again this song and the previous should be switched if rules were to allow me)

38. And what’s your final message to the world? Drinking With You- Johnathan Coulton (The lyrics say it better than this comment does)

Well how about that, quite a few songs bringing about love-themed thoughts but hey, it's onlya quiz.

Until next time...

Current song playing: Rose's Theme

That was from the Doctor Who special BBC Proms programme I was watching earlier, and I'll be honest that while I was listening to it and watching the accompanying footage my eyes did start watering up and I don't know why. I can't seem to stop myself.

Anyway to the purpose of this post, well this eventually short post. I have a read about people's New Year's to-do lists or resolutions, so I feel like I should follow suit...but I can't.

I'm drawing blanks, mainly because every year I've done resolutions until 2008's resolution was not to smoke, which was a cop out because I've never smoked so I used it as an easy way of making a resolution. Then after, well, some very special events of late 2007 it made me take a chance. Try something different, something harder but if you manage to complete it it'll make you the happiest you've ever been in your entire life. But no, I couldn't complete it, any attempts failed miserably and circumstances got to the point where it just became hopeless, and I resigned myself.

So now here is the start of another year and I'm out of ideas, won't do the no-smoking one again that's too easy, and everyone knows what I tried last year won't work this year either as I'm not as close as I was last year so I'm opening this up to suggestions. That's right, any reader of this is formally allowed to dictate what my New Year's resolution will be. But first some exceptions:

• Can't say give up chocolate or give up Coke, don't know why not but I'd prefer if I didn't have to.

Hmm, that's the only exception I can think of, well the decision rests with you my humble crowd of followers. Do what you want with me.

Current song playing: Feeder- Somewhere To Call Your Own

"I know that I've made mistakes don't get me wrong"

Actually been a rather decent day for me, at least it properly got good since I got home as I'm pleased to deliver the news to my limited audience that my inflatable chain chomp is back! I'll be trying to bring it into college as soon as I can hopefully so I can keep it inflated permanently to share the fun amongst my dear friends.

Speaking of which I'm going to be unoriginal and launch out some statements to some people I know in the hope they can understand something or other so here goes:

• I don't mean to confuse you so much when I talk to you, I just get nervous trying to think of stuff to talk about and end up spurting random rubbish to you. I just like talking to you a lot and don't want to end up starting dead convos all the time to try and seem an interesting person to you, but when you do start up conversations with me I am grateful that you do.
• I'm sorry for doing some things that have been a bit appropriate between two people of conflicting circumstances. I have said and done a few things I shouldn't and ought to know better, I'm just grateful for any attention you pay to me that's all. I'll stay away for a bit if my actions make you uncomfortable.
• A piece of me will always love you, but if I'm honest I think some of me has just given up on the chance of someone liking me and I guess now I just have to get on with life being the somewhat distinctly average and uninteresting person I must be to people. If anyone does see me as the kind of person they want to be with I guess I should just be grateful. But by no means consider this your fault, you're one of if not the best people I've ever had the pleasure to meet and my life, as hard as this may be to believe, would have been worse off not having met you.

Anyway not much important stuff to say then, just thought I'd put some stuff out there that has been playing on my mind.

See you soon.

Current song playing: Feeder- Itsumo

"Too many times I watched you leave, I didn't say anything"

Not much to report on in terms of interesting things that have happened to me over the past few days, I just felt like writing this poem. It doesn't have a title yet so feel free to suggest one:

This is to the girl who got away
That I shared my first kiss
Who couldn't face me that fateful day
And required another to break us up.

This is to the girl who moved away
That I had little courage to speak to
Who was gone that fateful day
And I'm unable to lay eyes her again.

This is to the girl who got taken away
That was my only friend
Who got kidnapped that fateful day
And left me alone once more.

This is to the girl who lives far away
That made the time I spent with her joyful
Who never knew I wanted her that fateful day
And who I hope to meet again.

This is to the girl who took my breath away
That introduced herself to me like no-one else
Who taught me what it was to love that fateful day
And will never be forgotten.

This is to the girl who will love me one day
That will make me happy
Who I will endeavour to do the same
And be at peace with the world.

Thankyou for reading.

Current song playing: Kaiser Chiefs- Try Your Best

"So try your best

And think about it later

Or you will never know"

Good evening on this blustery cold (summers?) evening.

Despite the weather conditions in Brighton being on a par with the monsoon that was the last time we went down there I enjoyed myself a fair bit more I have to be honest.

Didn't take as many pictures as I would have liked but weather didn't help but batteries are being great at losing their charge within hoursn, with minimal usage, of being removed from the bosom that is the National Grid. But I digress.

I'll list down the highlights here as I find it easier to remember somehow but feel free to ask more about it, would love someone to talk to right now.

• Musing with Gav on my steel drum from Antuiga, working on how to work out how to play songs on it which should be great. He recommended I try being the drummer on a game called "Rock Band" too which I look forward to trying.
• Somehow fitting into the Brighton scene even whilst wearing my black-and-white-hat-shaped-no-eyed-spider of a ski hat.
• Trying to take pictures of us on the escalators in Primark.
• Savouring the taste of Mountain Dew.
• Watching a guy in "Oddballs" completely master the yo-yo and diabolo right in front of Dex and Gav while they watched on in awe mixed with shame (:P)
• Meeting and acquiring a delightful small rubber ducky named Jasmine (due to eyelashes).
• The hugs ^^.
• Seeing the self-titled Boop and Koop dressed up in skinny jeans and corsets, they looked rather fetching =] (in a im-not-trying-to-flirt-with-peoples-girlfriends-just-complimenting-their-looks kind of way *phew*)
• Going barefoot into the water with Lizzie and Shelle even though the beach was pointy of my feet (no needles don't worry)
• Watching Hannah go hyper on Mountain Dew.
• Finding caramel chews in dice containers with Japanese caligrophy on them...for 30p!
• Running after Shelle to get her onto the train in time for home.
• Finding a post which had a poem written in a sprial downwards so I read it, out loud whilst spinning round it and inadvertedly getting in loads of peoples ways. Quite funny looking from where Gav and Lizzie were standing, especially with my hat =]

Anyway if any of the people who went to Brighton with me (Fia/Lizzie/Shelle/Cat/Boop/Dex/Gav/Matt/Hannah/Imi/Cathy/Gemma) then feel free to share them with me be it in picture form or not =]

See you soon my friends.

Current song playing: Coldplay- X&Y

"Trying hard to speak and
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
It's all part of the plan

When something is broken
And you try to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way you can"

My this blog has gone cold from neglect, I shall aim to warm it some more with a nice cup of Jasmine tea...shall have to pop back to the Steyning Tea Houses...maybe take someone with me *ponders*

Anyway I haven't really had anything significant to blog about recently and thus not felt like wasting peoples time by typing dribble but tonight fingers have come to keys and after talking to people (both meaning a lot to me) I've felt compelled to write.

I've been doubting myself recently, a lot in fact. I've grown nervous around the people who mean the most to me not only in person but online and not knowing what to type to keep them interested and having the confidence to type/talk slowly shrink away into seclusion or a feeling of "they wouldn't want to talk to me anyways".

I got shown some videos by someone recently and aside from being interesting in the way of showing how big space is and having some incredibly large figures, it made me think a little but probably not what I was supposed to. I doubted myself again to my worth as a person or to other's time even though it was supposed to make me feel great about myself and I apologise to Lizzie for not being as upbeat as I was supposed to be and being a pessimist toward myself.

Having getting over the nervousness of talking to people and trying to get conversations going though proved slightly easier for me recently as they've actually made me feel better just by talking to me and making me think that maybe I am interesting enough to make their time spent talking to me worthwhile.

What I have found the most confusing personally is when I try and explain my doubts or weird feelings I stumble and think to myself "I don't actually know" so it then gets me thinking as to why the hell I am thinking all this and that I should just grow up and be happy with what I have, yet I've not the will-power to do so it would seem.

Nonetheless I guess it's been a mental "what-the-hell" type thing going on for me but I just want to extend some thanks for some little things that have been good for me recently:

To Fia: For the walks in the woods, the chats online about many goods & all the laughs we had
To Lizzie: For the reassuring beliefs, the consoling of my griefs & the cute dp of an orange
To her: For simply responding, to leave me wondering, of when we will meet again.

Sleep well my friends.

Current song playing: The Killers- Romeo And Juliet

"I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV

And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be

I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you

Can't do anything except be in love with you



And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be"





I had a couple of odd dreams recently, one involving Lizzie and the other the cast of Top Gear...probably best you don't ask about these as I'm issuing an advance warning of possible disturbance.

Anyway now for something I've come to realise this week, I'm losing hope.


If it's now increasingly likely I'll ever be able to speak to her again then hell will freeze, thaw and refreeze before I can have anything romantic with her. I'm living in the past, I'm scared to turn to the future and I'm constantly relating myself to a simple Dr Who quote I saw in the finale:

"So what about you Doctor, all those friends you've got?"..."They've all got someone else now"



Alas I have to put out a mention to Fia, yet again she has been able to make me feel better what with her uplifiting demeanour and her frantic typing at the end of conversations trying to get down all she wants to say and my sneaky attempts at keeping her from going to bed so she can keep me smiling for that extra minute. Selfish I know, will have to get her that ice-cream I owe her as an apology gift.

Speaking of Fia I should probably end this blog with something uplifting...well it'll be uplifting for some and for others distinctly average.

Upon the arrival of July 12th the fantastic Fia and the sincere Steph kindly partnered me to the Goodwood Festival of Speed and I can honeslty say it was the best one I have ever been to simply because they were there with me. I've never been able to openly act in my automotive interests with people before, sure there are thousands of other people there too but apart from my Dad I've never been able to share my world with people like this before. So a most sincere thankyou to the both of you and now here are the moments from that day that I look back on kindest:

• Going "shopping" with Fia and Steph round the racecar model shops.
• Trying the A1GP pit-stop challenge with Dad.
• Talking to Alan McNish and finding out he was tired of journalists over-hyping the Le Mans battle between Audi (which he drove for) and Peugeot and thought Peugeot were going to win.
• Finding out both Alan and I love a good mocha.
• Battling the walk up the hill to crossing 6 with them both.
• Watching the tiny windscreen wipers on the tank go crazy.
• Waving umbrellas about to help Dad find me, much to photographer's displeasure.
• Seeing Fia get awe-struck by the Airbus A380.
• The three of us egging eachother on to get Sir Stirling Moss' autograph.
• Getting Sir Stirling Moss to sign a copy of Ian Fleming's "Live And Let Die".
• Watching Fia and Steph dive into a pile of bean bags at the Honda stand.
• Sitting on the Honda F1-liveried lawnmower with Steph.
• Fia giving Steph a ride in a Honda Civic Type-R, Fia being the driver of course, and having a laugh.
• The bumpy ride in the tractor shuttles up and down from the rally stage
• Being interviewed by the online Race of Champions TV crew about my opinions on it being hosted in Wembley.
• Running about the supercar display taking pictures just as the cars were preparing to do their runs up the hill.
• Getting a text from Fia giving me subtle clues as to where she was sitting in the supercar paddock.
• Getting a text from Fia saying "Look up" and literally looking up at the sky when they were right next to me on the wall, then getting a text saying "By the cafe we're not that ruddy tall!". Good laugh that was.
• Playing with the cavemen from Wacky Races's hair.
• Trying to get Steph and Fia noticed on the TV camera up by the rally stage with me.
• Driving an XBOX game on a stand where the seat was too low and the TV screen angles so the clouds reflected off the screen therefore not being able to see where you were going, not good when the steering wheel was nearly falling off the table and possibly explaining why the steering was so light. But fun to see Steph and Fia having a go and me giving them directions.
• Walking straight past Fia and Steph (literally) whilst trying to find them in the paddock...several times.
• Fia singing the Bugatti Veyron's praises, and me complimenting the Pur Sang edition.
• Fia and I taking pictures of eachother with her SLR camera whilst waiting for Steph to finish in the lavatory.
• The minimal traffic in and out of the event.
• Steph and I walking Fia to and from her house up to my Dad's car.
• Steph and I endlessly stroking Fia's face as it was so soft.
• Me walking arm in arm with Fia on my right and Steph on my left through the Style-et-Luxe past a James Bond car display with big band music in the background. I'll treasure that moment most for a very long time. "Well looks like you really CAN live like a spy and get the girls".

Anyway that's all I can remember for now, if I remember anything more I'll add it in a later date.

But I should probably take Fia's advice from 2 hours ago and go to bed.

I'll see you soon.

Current song playing: Ayano Tsuji- Kaze Ni Naru

"Close the forgotten eyes and retrieve the love song
Reach out your hand hidden in the blue sky one more time
Don't forget, soon I'll be by your side all the time
Even when at dawn you gaze at the starry sky alone"

I feel at ease right now, somewhat calm and at peace with the world. It's amazing what watching a film can do to me, and I finished watching 'The Cat Returns' a few minutes ago and I just can't help but love it. I've never admired and adored fictional characters so much until now. The grace, elegance and effortless chivalry of Baron Humbert von Gikkingen and the depth, beauty and spontaneous nature of Haru Yoshioka. I find the Baron the kind of gentlemanly figure I'd love to be as a person, to be able to be such an admirable figure as a person and to have the grace to pull off incredible feats with such poise and effortlessness. Just amazing. Haru however I just think is such an amazing character, such a deep thinker but with a cute clumsiness turning later to a beautiful grace and ease of movement in how she is as a person. Makes me wonder if there is someone in real life who is just like her, I'd love to meet her if there is.

Anyway I just felt like writing something on here as I like the mood I'm in, I hope I can stay like this as it seems to make life feel much easier for me. Now all I need is her to complete it...

Current song playing: Coldplay- Strawberry Swing

"Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time"

First off I have to mention how brilliant Mclaren was, out of all the day trips I have been on this just blows all the others out of the water. I was taken round their entire factory, although the day started off with a board meeting where we got to ask questions to the CEO of Mclaren Electronics about the cars (and I also had a cup of tea too, little finger lifted as standard). Then I was shown the SECU (Standard Electronic Control Unit) that they supply to every single car on the F1 grid. Then I was shown how they make the circuits to fit inside the SECU, but one weird thing I have to mention is that every door that I pushed gave me an electric shock as there must have been a huge build up of static in the air, did it to everyone in fact.

But the best bit of the trip had to be actually seeing the team making the sidepods and centre section of the 2009 car which will have brand new aerodynamics fitted to it to improve overtaking, I would have drawn it so I remembered what it looked like but I can't remember enough of what it looks like to accurately draw it. I also went inside the windtunnel section of the facility, and the windtunnel itself is so powerful that it has to be mounted on rubber supports from the ground otherwise the noise and vibrations from it would reverberate around the entire factory and probably break all the glass. Then as a finale I got to see the race and F1 cars they had on display, including Mika Hakkinen's 1998 and 1999 title winning MP4/13 & MP4/14, Kimi Raikonnen's 2005 MP4/20, a Mclaren F1 LM edition (one of 5 in the world), a Mclaren F1 GT Longtail race car which helped Mclaren dominate the GT racing scene in the mid 90's as part of their 1995 Le Mans 24 Hours win in which the car hardly needed any modifications to make it race-worthy. Also got to see all the trophies they'd won too.

Now I don't know why I decided to do this but I thought it might amuse me so as I recently acquired Coldplay's new album 'Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends" I will now personally review each song on the album.

1) Life In Technicolor: A good start to the album, rolling drums beats help keep the pace of the song up and was a good decision to start the album with a non-vocalised song, kept the theme original and could easily be recreated by any budding drummer.
2) Cemeteries Of London: Coldplay said themselves they aimed to name this song as how Morrisey formely of The Smiths would, and they weren't wrong. Not too bad a song, slower than Track 1 but still keeps an echoey air to it which suits this song best to make it a more calming tune.
3) Lost!: This is one of my favourite tracks on the album, I like the lyrics and the beat behind it could not be better, steady at first and has an African theme about it and as the song goes on it gradually gets replaced by the modern drum kit as played by Will Champion. I would also recommend listening to 'Lost?' which is a piano acoustic version of this song and can be downloaded from iTunes, the beat is the same but do give it a listen.
4) 42: Again this song is one of the ones I like listening to best, I could easily sit back and let the music calm and relax me, but unfortunately it doesn't last long. The song jumps from a calming piano into a full blown guitar and drums blast which I can't decide whether it gives the song added impact or makes it unneccessarily manic and would be better off keeping the calming piano throughout the song.
5) Lovers In Japan/Reign Of Love: The first part of the song i.e. 'Lovers In Japan' I like a fair bit, the piano has a nice rolling play to it, so not a bad effort. As far as 'Reign Of Love' is concerned, this would be the calmest track on the album, well I say track. I prefer the second part of this song mainly because it's the calming song I can lay back and relax too when I have had an iffy day.
6) Yes: Oddly seeing as this song seems to be another case of forgetting to press the "stop" button between songs as it doesn't mention there being a second part to the song as is done so in Track 5. Anyway onto the song, the first part relates to me a little but I won't go into that, it's a slightly harsher song in terms of how the instruments are used. As for the second part of the song I can actually see why they didn't give it a name because it doesn't really deserve one. I like the guitar playing very much in this but it's another non-vocal song and tends to repeat itself a little too much.
7) Viva La Vida: Now I don't care what anyone says about this track but I love it. The violins are an excellent touch and the lyrics behind it are even better, so thankyou Mr Martin for deciding to work on the song instead of going to sleep that fateful night. This is the song on the album that I've wanted to go out and sing the most, but obviously I don't as I've no idea if I can actually sing or not, and that's saying something for me as 'Lost!' comes pretty damn close to being my favourite song on the album too.
8) Violet Hill: Was a good decision to use this to help the build-up of the album's release But I can't help it may not be much more than that. Don't get me wrong, the song is good. I like the song as a whole as you shouldn't be deterred by my previous comment about this song.
9) Strawberry Swing: Upon hearing this song I have now decided my absolute favourite songs on this album are 'Lost!', 'Viva La Vida' and this. It always gets my feet tapping when the intro plays and I'm not sure what effect that is at the start of the song but whatever it is it's done a great job. A good song for lovers in terms of the lyrics but in my case just makes me think of her and that's all I'll say about it.
10) Death And All His Friends: This song has both it's upsides and downsides, the upside being the instrumental performance of this song being above-par but the downside being I can't help but feel Mr Martin is in somewhat of a rush to fit the lyrics into one line during the mid-point of the song. Overall though it's not bad.

So that's my review done, comment if you disagree and I think I know of one person who's likely to disagree and he knows who he is.

Anyway as you may have noticed I've been rather down over these past days (except for tuesday that was just an amazing day, better if I had gotten to speak to her in person though), and I won't expand on it mainly because it's due to stupid, self-centered reasons and my emotions are insignifficant compared to people's present problems/situations.

Alas, I am ending this blog now. I'll see you lot soon.
*bows*

Current song playing: The Real Thing- You To Me Are Everything

"Though you're close to me, we seem so far apart. Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart."

Weird day today, I seemed to have experienced a somewhat spontaneous depression. I haven't had one of those in a while and I hope I don't have one again soon.

This combined with feeling a tad tired and not looking forward to work in the evening left me feeling rather odd, and you know what else odd I felt? I felt ordinary, and I don't mean as in normal because there's no such thing as normal it's just an invention of the majority of society to create a set style for people to follow but which is constantly changing.

Anyway, I speak of feeling ordinary but not only that, I felt like an also-ran, as if i was 'just another guy' who hangs about in the background and never gets noticed most of the time. I don't know this could be of my own invention or just a reflection of how slowly I seem to progress in life. Now before you get any ideas I have this to say:

It's not your fault.

I've had these kind of days before, but not for years, mainly between the end of Year 6 and early Year 10, but that was because I didn't have many people to call my friend and a lot of people were playing with my emotions. I was even sent to a counsellor but she didn't get to the root of the depressions, she had to leave for a different centre and I was left without a friend and no close to finding out what was wrong with me back then. Now however I haven't been having many at all so just give me hugs and have a chat and I'll be as right as rain. Especially if my love gives me a little cuddle, I'll be ever so grateful.

I'm sorry for acting so down to you, you came over to me to see how I was and I wanted to talk to you about how I was feeling but evidently it was not the right time to talk to you. I promise to talk to you about my problems when I next get the right chance to. It's the least I can do after what you've done for me.

Anyway being forced to redo my Key Skills work (which is preventing me from getting into A2 and I originally submitted it at Christmas and only now has my teacher told me to redo it), being pestered about my theory test for driving not only by Dad but now by Mum aswell who is telling me essentially that I need to get a move on, and being told to get a new job is probably not helping me relax when I want to now that I've gotten the chance.

So alas I must finish this post, I can't think of much more to say than that recently I had a dream and I want to talk to someone I trust about it because I don't know if I should have had it or not. Also I'm listening to the Russell Brand podcast, the latest one mind.

Now I fare the well, and for that special girl, I love you.

P.S. Can anyone who has subscribed to my blog feed or someone who regularly reads my blogs give me a comment on this because I want to get an idea on how many and who reads my blogs. Thankyou.

Current song playing: Jamiroquai- Cosmic Girl

"Sends me into hyperspace, when I see her pretty face"

Well here I am, free of exams and making the most of all the lie-ins I'm getting. Waking up at about 12:45pm gives you an idea of how much sleep I'm catching up eh?

I have had some really relaxing days though, and there's not much better than lying in your bed, watching Dr Who DVD's and talking to that ever so special girl. Oh and the odd cup of tea can't go amiss either.

Generally I'm feeling more at ease, don't know whether that's due to no more exams or whether I'm just feeling happier chatting to the girl I love more often and sharing what's troubling ourselves with eachother but what's for certain is that I'm thankful for that. If this is a sign of what's to come then I'm going to have a very good summer.

A quick message to those who ever told me to "get a life", well guess what? I've got one, and this summer is without doubt going to be the best one I've ever had. I've got all my friends, my love, the radio show, the vlog project, and all the park days I've had and am bound to have.

Yet I have two more weeks of this, I sense I'll probably be the peace maker while everyone around me goes crazy over their last exams, that actually doesn't sound like such a bad thing, will certainly give me a break from all my driving theory I'll be doing, my instructor has challenged me to be ready to take my test by June 16th so that'll be a mission.

Finally seeing as I can't seem to think of much more to write now I have a little message to send out, the right person who reads this will understand it.

It'll get easier, I know it may seem like it now but if you keep what makes you happy around you then that's all that matters. It's been an honour to be there for you and I hope to mean this much to you forevermore because you know what? It makes me so happy.

That's it I guess, with all this free time you can expect me to be posting more often but we'll soon see won't we?

Fare thee well, and I love you